sweeteranthe

It seem every time I let someone get close to me they take advantage, be they friend or family. I don't know what is wrong with people, why they feel the can act with no thought to the feelings,needs,wants, or desires of others with no thought to the consequences to thier actions.
Just because it suits thier needs they feel it's ok to use another persons identity, to take thier hard earned savings, to try and manipulate somebody into having sex with them to prove a point. A non valid one at that. Did it piss you off that he wouldn't do it? Is that why you took my chance at freedom away?

I'm sick to death of turning the other cheek, I try to be a good person, and to be kind and giving...I'm always there to help someone who needs me...but dear cousin, you and your ilk make it difficult for even a saint to love you. I hope you read this...I hope it sinks in and you begin to think about what your choices are doing to others.

I'm finding it very difficult to love you at this point.

Current Mood: angry

It's been another hectic week, Britt has had me running around like a crazy person trying to get her papers filed, dropping her at work, visits to the doctor, and trying to clean the house, take care of the kids and pets and create for sims 2 in my spare time. On the positive side I get to be home more because I'm not allowed to leave her unsupervised in our home.

She has been feeling better about herself and stopped moping around the house, I'm pretty sure she'll be fine once he signs those papers. Hopefully she has learned her lesson and won't be so trusting of people in the future. It's funny how one person can cause so much ruin and devastation in her wake. I'm still living with the wreckage our friend made of my life.

We tried to get her things from her apartment but half were missing and they used the other things so she doesn't want them now. I don't mind her wearing my things, it seem like all I wear anymore is a pair of jeans and a t-shirt. I got tired of my nice clothes getting ruined loading the truck *laugh*

Britt offered some of my things to the owner of the site she's at and they loved them, so I may end up creating for them as well. I've been visiting there and reading over Britt's shoulder, they really do seem like a nice group of people. The site is an adult site, so my risque sim things fit right in *giggle* I did purchase a domain name and I'll eventually have my own little site and forum, but it will take a while because I have no idea how to set it up.

The sun is out so I'm heading to the pool to tan my hide :)
Hope you are all well and having a fab day!!!

Current Mood: giggly
Current Music: The Suffering Coheed and Cambria

I finally had news of a good friend that I thought had dropped off the face of the Earth. I was so very happy to hear he was doing well and that even though his life isn't *perfect*, he still has that same cheerful outlook and caring personality that I so love about him. Hearing about him made me forget the issues that are still ongoing in my life, it was like a bright ray of sunshine in my cloudy day.

I wish I could talk to him myself, and tell him how I feel, but life has a way of conspiring against me lol. It seems that whatever I want most in life will be denied me. Oh well, at least things are good for him and I hope he knows he has my heart.

My cousin has had a bit of family drama and was forced to move in with us for a bit, Britt is a bit wild but I'm loving having her here. It's sort of an us against them now instead of me against the world lol. We've been making things for sims 2 together and she has really gotten quite good at skinning. Her work is even on a very popular site.
I wish things would have worked out differently for her if she had listened when I warned her about a mutual friend, she wouldn't be getting a divorce.

I guess that's all for now.

Current Location: in bed
Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: Living Dead Girl Rob Zombie

Life is so funny sometimes, I felt like it was the end of the world for so long, didn't want to get out of bed or even bother to breathe. Then, something happens, I hear from you...and all is right with the world. The sun comes out of hiding, colors are brighter...and my heart sings. I missed you so much. You make everything OK.

Current Mood: cheerful

Finally hearing from you was great. I guess patience IS a virtue. Don't have much time today, to much housework...must have eight loads of laundry to do and the garden is full of weeds lol. I'm sending you a mental hug...TTYL

Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: Panic At The Disco I Write Sins Not Tradgedies

Busy busy busy I wish I could slow down lol I need a vacation. I was so angry I missed your call L. I'm going to be on the road a few more weeks, damned cell and signal towers. If I even get the call it gets dropped. You would think with all these towers they built, the thing would stay connected. Oh well, at least you can sneak on and read what I'm doing when he's not there lol.

I'll be staying put for the weekend then we will be going to the next state. I'm sick of travelling, seems like I never know what city I'm in. I miss you Lizzie!!!

Current Mood: bouncy
Current Music: Evanessence My Immortal

Hey L your old man is a jackass. I'm going to send you a cell phone...so tired of his crap. Did you get the roses? Hope you like them, scatter the petal in your bath tonight and I'll do the same ROFL it will be like taking a bubble bath together. Only without the together part.

I got a new robe and three teddies, chocolate syrup, massage oil and a rabbit pelt (Insert eye roll here) Don't ask lol. Hope he at least got you something nice...going to the fishing camp again would suck...and not in a good way.


Big Hugs! Stay Safe and Sober!

Current Mood: cynical
Current Music: Rob Zombie Living Dead Girl

Haven't been on much lately. I miss you L. I called last night, but he wouldn't put you on the phone. If I get up that way next week, I'll stop in for a bit. I was thinking about Jacksonville alot today..you ready to move out yet? I am.

Big Hugs...call you tonight eightish.

Current Mood: busy